Oh, Bother (Again)
I don’t want to become a jaded, cynical person. Really, I don’t. But it’s times like these that really just make me wonder. I guess the issue is that I’m frustrated by my prospects for the future. I feel like all the colleges I applied to were not places that I really wanted to go to and now I am stuck settling for what’s left. I am scared and worried and full of doubt about how things are going to turn out because I know now that things don’t always work out in the end, or at least, I’m still waiting for them to. I regret a lot of the decisions I made early on in this whole process and I regret being so passive and being influenced by so many people and ideas that were not my own.
Lately, I’ve been watching a lot of war movies. I think it’s because I want to be reminded that I’ve got it pretty good compared to most people. Sometimes I lose sight of that and it helps me put things in perspective to see that any suffering I might be going through is so far away from the true suffering. I have everything to be thankful for, but right now, it is especially difficult to remember that.
